Being an Adult... Scary!

Happy Halloween everyone!


I'm writing this with a big smile on my face! I have finally submitted my PGCE application!!!!!!!!!! Ahhhhh this is so scary. What if I don't get the place I want? What if I submitted it too late? I am overthinking everything. 

I have been taking this experience day by day, one step at a time. I have never had the time to just sit down and think about everything. We are all in a foreign county, alone, teaching. Thinking about it, how amazing are we?! We have all had the guts to trust UKLC and Erasmus to take care of us (and for this to not be a scam 😂). We stand up in front of a class every day and they trust us to teach them. Don't get me wrong, I love this experience but it's just kicking in how scary this all is. Being an adult. And how ironic, I am thinking about it all on Halloween 😱

Anyway, I hope you are all doing great! I am going to have a slight mental breakdown about all of this 😂

Lots of love,
Phoebe xxx

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